interesting day

i have a headache right now again and its really making me cranky but im trying to ignore it while i half watch another movie...i went out with catrina today and it has been a long time since ive seen her and it was fun...i got lunch and a movie for a christmas present from her and she didnt really like rent but thats ok...she just saw things differently than i did and i guess she looked at it in more of a religious view than i did but i still like it...i want to see brokeback mountain too and a bunch of others...wwe went to ruby tuesdays for lunch and they have a really good veggie burger...i was surprised i ate it..me the queen of not liking anything at that but it really was good if not a bit expensive...im glad i went out with her though..it was a good break from everything and i did miss her not that i told her that...but anyhoo it was a ok day...as much as i like watching rent the movie is downright depressing and once again i got really depressed because i dont know what love is and because i cant decide what i want out of love or even if i deserve love from anyone...its just weird and i suck and everything ..blah