shame

shame is an interesting thing...sometimes i am not ashamed at all..and sometimes the need to hide and protect everything i possibly can dealing with the self harm is strong..and right now being in a situation where my body is not able to be completely protected..and i am afraid and ashamed...i cant hide if im not allowed to even wear my own clothes..and i count on my clothes to keep the bulk of the scars covered up and out of the way..vulnerable just doesnt even begin to cover it really..im just scared and tired and want this to be over with...now...