my heart is broken...my mind will follow

my heart is breaking ..i can feel it..i know it..and there is nothing i can do to stop it..i cant fix it..i cant make it better..i cant do anything but hope that i dont manage to do anything stupid right now..my thoughts have become a single sentence of negativity..and thats all i hear..that im worthless..that im stupid..that im nothing...that no one wants me around..that im not important..that im not needed..over and over and over...what have i done?  what makes me so very bad and awful? and not worth anyones time or care or concern...i dont know what i was thinking...i really thought i could have the attention and care..that i would have the help and company..but again..everyone else comes before me..and i only get what is left over...maybe im not as strong as ppl think...maybe i need help and care too...maybe i dont ..i dont know...im just stupid stupid me..and no one will notice if i am not even here...