hopeless and tired

right now i am just feeling completely hopeless and tired of everything..i feel like everything i have dealt with for the past few weeks has been for nothing at all...its like being told my pain is not real..my pain is not important enough to be dealt with now..and what the doc wants me to do is to work on losing weight...and that is going to fix my problems?? i saw the report that said i had gallstones..and i am in pain often..it may not be excruicating pain..but it is pain...why cant he juts fix the thing that i know is causing the problem? and let me go from there?  so instead all the preparing and fear and everything has juts broken apart around me..and i dont know what to do or what to say...i really dont..i will go and see what the doc has to say next week as i dont really have a choice..well i have a choice but i might as well see what he has to say..and then i guess i will go from there... but i do know that i will no longer mention or complain about anything pain wise..whats the point?  if im sick..so be it...obviously its not bad enough to need immediate surgery so i guess ill live...and i will put it all to the back of my mind and just let it go for now...as i dont know what else to do..my head is not in a good place..and i do really feel like giving up..im tired of all of this...i really am...