Thursday, October 27, 2011

sick and tired..i am sick..and im pretty tired

.currently feeling really sick...nauseous and sick and uncomfortable..majorly uncomfortable..since about 2 this afternoon the nausea just isnt going away im pretty sure its one of the new meds..both can cause nausea..but can i get a break please ?!?! i spent over an hour today just laying in my car because it hurt to much to sit up and drive anywhere..i did end up working all day at least..but i just really wasnt into it..so tired and sick and scared of being sick..this is very miserable and i dont want to complain..i really dont..but its hard to be feeling so sick and being all by myself in the middle of a parking lot and laying in my car because it hurts to much to drive..

no im not liking this very much at all.

its like we find out about the diabetes and its like suddenly every single meal is like waiting for a ticking time bomb to go ooff..everything is not ok to eat..afraid that one bad thing will kill me..:( its still way overwhelming and feeling so out of my limit..and add in the daily constant need to barf..and im just tired of all of it already..not giving up..but just sad about it all..upset about it..

one of the docs from the clinic called me today and asked me about joining a program that is offered there to diabetics..and its like ill get to meet with pharmacy ppls..and talk about my meds and get free stuff ( im all for free stuff ) but it would be like part medical/part info gathering type thing..so i said ok..and my first appointment with them is in a week or so..the increase in doc appts is pretty depressing also..
and mommy is positive that im going to die at any second..and i hate telling me that im not feeling good but darn it i dont have the energy to stick with lying..its to much to deal with..

so yeah just feeling miserable and sick and sad...

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