scary life changing stuff....saved a life....

yesterday was scary...really really scary :( and there was lots of anxiety and hospitals and ambulances and everything.. so i guess i need to start at the beginning a bit...yesterday i was at work...i work with two families who live in the same apartment building...my family downstairs i had already seen for the day and had moved back upstairs to have a chat with my client before heading home....well i was upstairs with my client for about an hour or so and was just talking and stuff..and we hear the kids running up the hall stairs...my client mentioned them and why they had to run and i made some response about how they are just being kids..well they come bursting into the apartment and both talking at once began to ask me to come downstairs because there mom needed help..and im trying to get them to tell me whats going on and what is happening and they are trying to tell me..but either way i get up and go downstairs cas they mentioned seizure a a little boy...no idea what i was about to walk in to but all the same i went..and i get to the downstairs apartment and realized that the lil 2 yr old was having a seizure and having trouble breathing and everything..and so once i took in what was going on it was like having a single minded focus on  getting the the little boy..and doing what i could you know...i headed his mom mmy phone and told her to call 911 because i didnt know if anyone had called yet..(to my major disappointment the mom had my phone but did not call 911)  the other mother in the room had tried to help the little boy by holding down his tongue while he was having the seizure..and the problem with that is that the person is going to bite down as a reflex..and when i came into the room she couldnt get her fingers out of his mouth because he had bit down..so first i had to get her hand out..and i touched the little boy and he was hot..i mean really hot..i got them to give me a cold wash cloth and then i got them to give me ice to help cool him off..and the mom who had her hand stuck in his mouth was actually on the phone with 911 thankfully!  i got the kid turned on his side and spent the time just talking to him and trying to cool him down..and hoping that the ambluance would hurry up and get there! while i was with him he was awake but was gasping for breath..he wasnt moving..and i had one hand on the back of his neck and the other hand on his chest..and his heart was beating really really fast and i was talking to him and reassuring him you know...i had to remind the other kids in the room to back up and to give the little boy space ( there were 3 other young kids in the room, 3 adults including me, the baby, and the 2 yr old)  i had to tell everyone what to do..cas i had the kids wanting to help and the adults breaking down..and im the one thats collected and able to see what is going on and do what needs to be done and help out...finally the ambluance comes and the kids mother comes back inside..and is freaking out still..and the paramedics come and take the little boy and the mom is you know yelling and cursing at the paramedics ..and oh it was such a big big mess...i had to stop and process with the other kids and checked to make sure they were ok and all of them were scared and worried you know...i went to the hospital with the mom of my 6yr old client( the downstairs family)..and my anxiety about the whole thing did not start showing until i couldn't find parking at the hospital...oooh i was hot and frustrated and annoyed and all this stuff is going through my mind about this little boy and what has happened and i was just scared and worried but also having to keep it all together ... so finally find a spot and we are going to the emergency room..and the kids mom sees us and calls us over to the critical ccare hospital..she lets me have the visitors pass to go in and see her son..and so i go and  check on him and he is in the little room..he was sitting up and breathing more normally..looked more like his self..you know..and they were still wanting to run tests on him and things and try to figure out what happened and everything..so we left the hospital and went back to my clients house becuase i still needed to get my stuff and everything..and that turned into me having to keep it together for a bit longer because my other client needed to talk about what not about her own stuff..so i stayed...and finally i headed home at about 10:30 last night! started to freak out on the d rive home and my head was on overdrive just thinking about everything that could have happened and if the family had been away from the house and the mom doesnt have a cell phone or anything !  scary scary thougts...and so on the way home i called my sister and talked to her about it all..and then when i realized i was still super amped i called my supervisor and told her everything that had happened and how i was feeling..and she talked me through it and acknowledged my upset feelings at the kids mother for not being there and not helping..and just told me that it is a good thing i was there ... that i was in the right place at the right time..and that i should feel proud of myself...all stuff of course you know that i wouldnt ever in a million years consider..you know..this is me?!  im nobody important..im nothing special at all..and this happens and my supervisor is wwalking around calling me a life safer..my sister is telling me that im a hero..that it is a good thing i was there..but what do i feel? i dont know..im happy i was there ..i am.. and im happy i could help you know...i would never have considered it something special you know...i did what i had to do..and maybe i am playing it down majorly .. ok well i know im playing it down heavily..but it is scary to try and process it all....i found out today that i may be working with the family when the mom enters into services with us..but yeah..that is pretty much a recap on yesterday! 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A LOT happened