extreme mood swings.

*my keyboard is on the fritz majorly. so sorry for the mega misspelings*
my mood right now is fairly volatile . im angry at everything.at myself.at work. im angry that i dont fel like im managing. like im a bad person. like im nothing invisible. worthless ashamed. all of it..i took a personal day today and i did some stuff around the apartment that neded to get done you know. i was feeling proud of myself for finaly accomplishing something as menial as cleaning my apartment. but then i got a phone cal about some work stuf and had to leave the house and well being outside in the heat was the first strike. caused a major massive downward spike. the fact that i am trying to conserve gas and not running the air conditioner was the major second strike and i just got cranky and upset and tired. and then i got to my clients place and she wont answer the phone.i wasnt dressed to go in and i most certainly wasnt feeling social at al and so i waited and finally the house guest came out and i asked her to go and get the lady i was trying to reach and she came back and told me that she was asleep and couldnt come out. what the hel! i am doing her a favor and its like fuck it al to hell and i changed my freaking plans to get to her and give her what she asked for.and was it appreciated no!! bloody hell that makes me feel really mad and upset and like i dont mater once again unless someone neds something from me..and im at the library right now and trying hard to calm down. but to make my life better im stressed about a lot of stuf .and struggling with even more stuff and trying to contain my head and everything in it. and i fel like im getting cramps but ive missed my period for like the last 4 months. i have to start the meds again to help get back on track with it. mommy is being nosy and in my business and i want to tell her to leave me alone. i want to be left alone is that so much to ask? i dont want to be called, or see anyone, i want to hide and for it to be quiet. my mood is majorly up and down lately. majorly not ok to just managing and back and forth and just i dont know what to do. i feel crazy. today i fel angry and crazy and it may be best that i go home soon since im feeling so out of control.