today..thanksgiving

im ok

feeling a bit more focused now..and was cleaning up a little bit...made it to work and it was actually really nice..three of the 7 girls were there today and so it was really really nice! made dinner and it turned out good..did some of the girls hair..and just kinda in general chilled out with them..

came home and was to tired to really make any more food ..except then like four hours later decided i did want food and started cooking some stuff..so yeah lol..but then had 2 bananas and a brownie with ice cream and dont want the food anymore ^o) but i dont know..something about sweet potatoes that smells like thanksgiving to me lol...so yeah..

when i first got home from work i was starting to feel really sad and down..ok depressed .. and it was wanting to cut depression :( read a book...and just kinda stared and forgot where i was in a way..didnt want to be bothered..and well yvonne came home but had plans to go out and that made me madder ..ugh..but finally got out of bed after her and her bf left and started playing games online..and then wanted food and so that led to cleaning up..and now feeling more ok..more focused..but still really tired.. taking a break right not though because my back is hurting a little bit..so just kinda wasting a bit of time before doing anything else..

but yes..feeling better..and thats good...3 more days of work and then off! cant wait..

and tomorrow i get to take some of the girls to the movies..dont know what we are going to see but it should be a nice get away