depression sucks

i dont know what is wrong with me today...going so slow with getting things done..i had every intention of leaving the house and running errands before work..but im still sitting here..ready to cry because i cant do anything ..cas im sad and i dont know what to do about it..im getting ready to go to breakfast with yvonne instead of going and doing what i should be doing before work...its going to be a busy day at work..and i was elected to go to some church thing that im not really to interested in tonight with some of my group..its raining outside and i cant find my stupid umbrella at all..and i dont want to get wet and its just bothering me..i think right now everything is just bothering me.. i just want to go and lay back down..i think money is worrying me a lot right now..and im struggling big time with figuring out what i can and cant pay ..and im stressed about what i owe mommy and if she will be mad if i send her less than what she is expecting from me...and i ..i just i dont know .. its so esy to sink into depression and just want to hide from the world..i want to hide..i probably wouldnt havee made it out to do anything before work if yvonne hadnt asked me to go to breakfast.. i would have gone and laid back down and pretended i forgot i had anything at all to do with my day..just because today is kinda all over the place ..but i guess i should go cas i really dont have a lot of time before wor k and have to get out of the house if i expect to do anything at all.