today is better. linda did help..and it was helpful telling her about the pills and the not plan thats not really happening and so on..talked some about tuesday to and how hard it was..and left her feeling better..also promised to not take the pills i had and to not go and take anymore from where i am currently getting them from..and she added in that i was not to go and get them from anywhere else either..and its pretty funny because as i was promising all this stuff i was still trying to figure out how to get around all of it..and then she went and changed it and i had to stop trying .and its pretty interesting because she asked what i wanted to do about it when i refused to agree to get rid of them..and its like i dont know but i told her not to worry..and she said she trusted me enough to know that i would stick to what we had agreed too..and i really do want her to trust me..wondered how i had earned that trust but anyway it was ok today..

i really am feeling better, but i know that it will most likely be important to kinda stay busy this weekend. not get stuck with to much free time when im not doing anything because im sure the okness may be shortlived and i dont want to help it along any. but home today since i dont have to work and i think ill just take it easy, get caught up on mail and stuff, have to clean up and whatnot as i was reminded of at 6 this morning but not going to complain about that because its not all that important..mommy can do her thing and i will do mine..maybe i will actually make it to the movies this weekend. really want to see a whole bunch of movies lol..but i will figure out something small to do each day just to get out of the house. specially now since the urge to not do anything is pretty strong.