now i remember what i was going to write about .

my cl is getting some of her hours back! i wont have to take another cl to make up the lost time..but it will be like april before my paychecks are back to normal..the way the pay is done is so confusing because its a month behind..so in march im getting paid for febs hours and so on..which is mice in some ways but oh so confusing if i dont keep track of it..but they are also working to get this specific cl into a group home which makes me sad but she could so use it..it would get her around ppl her age..and the structure would be nice but then i wont work with her anymore and would have to get another cl if she did get placed..but for now im not goin to worry to much..and ill wait and see how it goes..maybe if i have to stop working with her ill just elect to really get another job ..since i keep not looking like i should..but then i freak out about non work stuff and wonder how ill manage a red job..blah..i dont know. but yea that was semi good news yesterday.

once again im the last one to know what my schedule will be :( hate that.. but everyone is going out of town and im suddenly in charge of everything else..so im babysitting tonight and tomorrow and spending the night..and then on monday i have to be there super early to get them up and ready for school and spend the night then too and take them to school on tuesday..and in all of this is my usual work schedule that im not changing because its not fair..and i guess i shouldnt complain since it means more extra money..and its nice to be able to catch up with bills..but its just everyone assumes i will do it..and i want to just say no and go and do something else but thats not the way things go.. and just all the little stuff like not being home and having to slightly pack and get stuff to go over there and i could be there longer than planned and dusti will have to have plenty of food and everything and getting work stuff cas that has to be finished ahead of time..and errands all over town that i need to run today..and yea schedule just got a lot fuller! was annoyed earlier about my brother and mommy completely telling me i needed to do his fin aid stuff for him..i had already told my brother i wasnt going to do it.but mommy tells me today that its due today and so i have to do it and i have to get it in..it took about 30 mins to find everything and get the info entered and i just wonder why no one else can do it? how is it that im the only one thats good enough to fill out the info..and its not even mine?! but mommy did thank me for doing it..got no response from me on it but whatever