the worst thing that did happen

i was fired...i made a mistake..and didnt think through giving my keys to one of the kids..and i lost my job over it..

i feel stupid..and sad..very very sad..all ive done is cry for the last 2 hours..
i wasnt allowed to say goodbye to the girls..they will think i abandoned them :'( :'( i managed to call nia and t..well t asked me to call her and let her know what happened either way..but just called my sister to call her i guess..and she told me to come to her house..and im not completely sure about it.but i think i am going. being alone is not good. all im doing is crying and having lots of really really bad thoughts. i dont know how im gonna manage anything right now..i dont feel like i can do anything but lay down and cry right now..im not allowed to go back to my job at all.. i had to give back my keys before i left..and ive already been locked out of my job email..i cant go back there at all..i guess i better start getting stuff ready so i can leave...