so i was thinking today about another trip i want to take..well not a trip really its like a conference thing and its next feb ..and a friend i know online and in person is going ..and i told her that i would like to go also..cas its right at disney world and im sorry but i can not pass up a trip to anywhere near disney world lol..but i told her and i have been thinking about it since yesterday and wondering if it was a good idea..and if i should go..and all that..and once i decided to go i immediatly started to worry what mommy would say or if i would tell her...this is the first time i have ever ever in my whole life started doing things that i want to do..and started to i guess have some say in my life and where its going and suddenly that is super duper scary..im nervous about it..and i know that what im doing its mommys concern at all and that i can pick where i want to go or not go and she cant tell me yes or no..but still the worry is there..i think i want her approval..i guess..but i dont need it..and i guess thats the biggest difference right now..
and maybe seeing linda and having her tell me in the past couple weeks that i am doing a lot of stuff that im not giving myself credit for or accepting..and its hard to acknowledge the good stuff..but i guess she is right..i am doing stuff..im starting to do stuff..and it is different and nerve wrecking..big time..
guess i still have a lot to get used too!
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