so i have talked with t alot about you know getting out more and meeting new people and all of that..and i have lots of issues around that..cas im so quiet and its so hard for me to talk...
but the other day i was messing around on craigslist..and ran into this meetup site..and it has all sorts of meetup groups about all sorts of different interests and things...and i happened to find one for umm depression/bipolar/anxiety and joined it..and there was a meeting tonight, like a support group type thing and i actually went! barely said a word but i stayed the entire time and just kinda listened ..and ended up frustrated because i could understand and relate to a lot that was being said..but i couldnt talk :blink: well i couldnt get the words to come out..but the ppl were very nice..and tried to make me feel comfortable lol..but well me being me..that wasnt happening tonight..
but well i think im gonna go again..the meetings are every week but i can only go every other week because of work..but i really think i want to go again..
and hopefully the more i go the more at ease ill feel..cas goodness my anxiety was through the roof ..and i was fidgeting all over the place !
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