no more therapy

hmm so im trying to be realistic..i am...and im realizing that realistically i may not be able to go back to therapy after a couple weeks and i wont be able to see the pdoc either. i see the pdoc thursday and im worried about telling her that im losing my insurance..linda already knows..but the pdoc doesnt..and we will have to talk about meds..and that is really worrying me..all of it is pretty much worrying me..because even if i get this job..benefits dont come in for 3 months! and that wouldnt be until like october..i have no idea how ill manage all that time without therapy..and if i cant cover meds i really dont know what ill do ... ive read that the withdrawl from effexor is awful :( and i already know that even missing a day on the lexapro leaves me feeling not okay...and yeah..im not even sure i can afford to ask for a 3 month supply of each..cas all together for one month the meds are about 80..and so a three month supply would be about 240 or so..and as of right now i only have one check for july..and rent and car stuff has to get paid..and there wont be much left over...crap crap double crap...i hate all this..and i dont know if ill even have enough time to talk about it with t tomorrow...