Saturday, December 12, 2009

long night

tonight is what i would call a very very late night..i ended up staying over at work for almost an hour just trying to finish paperwork and talking and all that..its overtime so im not to worried or feel overwhelmed about it..i was feeling rather awake for that hour..so it was pretty ok...but work tonight was ok overall..one of the girls had a breakdown and ended up talking to me for almost an hour..i really did just want to get up and hug her but i couldnt..but she was in tears talking to me..and she had a lot on her mind..cas she said it all..and i actually told her that i had been in therapy and that it was hard..and that i knew where she was coming from..i think that helped but it was hard cas then i felt completely vulnerable and out there..and i was trying hard to control my reactions..but i think i did ok..but then the time just flew by..and it was time to go and i wasnt finished of course an so stayed..but she did tell me that i should be a therapist.. all i did was listen and well advise ..

and then i creeped myself out big time..cas i needed to go to the atm and its after midnight..and the one i find without going out of the way was an atm that was not a drive up on..so i had to get out of the car and go and stand at it..and i was so scared and creeped out and the longer i stayed there the more creeped out i got! i can make myself paranoid pretty quickly cas yeah..not cool at all and next time ill so go to a drive through one..

but now im home and waiting for the meds to kick in..im tired..but not sleep tired yet..

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