Saturday, June 30, 2007

upset

im completely mad at yvonne for right now and it really annoys me that she implies im mad and right after that asks if it is something she has done..for once can anyone just let me be mad without making me feel like i have to apoligize for it! its not fair that its allows the other way around and its never just about me for a little while..there always has to be some underlying reason that i am upset or bothered and it just cant be im having a bad day or something..does no one realize i have a life outside of camp and that im maybe not always compeltely happy..i may not show it at all but dont assume it ...and dont try to change it so that im suddenly worried that ive done something to upset you when its not about you in the slightest..i just dont like it at all..and yea i know yvonne has been having a hard time of things lately with her bf and stuff but dont start taking it out on me when ive done nothing but listen and be a friend and be helpful...im sorry if sometimes im not insterested in what is being said or im sidetracked and watching kids or doing other things i have to do and cant focus fully on anyone..im sorry ok..im sorry im dumb enough to actually think that what i feel or want is important and means something..because if im not helping someone else then i must not be doing my job right..but after the first few days does anyone bother to really ask how im doing anymore? all that matters is that im suddenly back and so the world must be right again..

ill stop whining now

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