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ive been really stupid lately...really having a hard time of everythign and i stay fairly busy but its not enough i guess..given office work is boring as heck and i try to go in and out of the office when i can..but linda has caught on to when im fishing for a way to be let out of paperwork duties and wont agree to what im asking to do...but its ok since i know she is glad im willing to do it and i do a good job with it..and its fun being in the office with everyone im comfortable with..but i am getting more comfortable talking with the new ppl..still in my own little world but im getting better...its so weird being there and not fitting completely into either group..like im not new but im not admin but i have admin privledges..i know how the camp works, i know where stuff is and how to get it or find it, i know some of the returning campers and i have tons of stories..not that anyone would believe them lol.its true that you cant understand talisman stories if you dont work there or have worked there...so anyway back to what i started off with ... hmmm really just out of it the past couple days..sad but not really .. yesterday was a crying day but i held that off and ended up cutting instead .. and one thing led to another and i have no promised to work harder at not cutting...no idea why i even gave in and agreed to it but i did and so ill try ..if nothing else i will try everything i can think of to stop .. .