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im not in a good mood at all right now..and havent been for a while today..havent been feeling good at all today and i cant seem to get rid of the headache ive had since earlier..i wanted to take a nap and couldnt because mommy had me doing stuff..im annoyed that the pay dates and changing and it sucks that i cant do anything about it and i was counting on the money i was getting and yea im still getting it i guess but its all weird now..so yesterday i just magically have a check for like a week of work that i wasnt expecting but now i have to wait a whole two weeks before im even paid again..mommy is telling me i need to come home next week to bring some of henrys stuff..but i told her ill be out of town on the 13th i think and so i cant stay and she is juts dead set on me going there to do what she wants me to do but still trying ot make sure im back in time to leave to go somewhere else..i asked about babysitting and she said no because it would be to much traveling...im covered in bug bites im scratched into submission and so yea my legs and arms are looking a bit worse for wear right now and i know mommy will be so so mad at me..its to hot for long sleeve shirts and im trying to be ok with all of it and im not...really hating myself right now i guess..watched talk shows and its like how stupid is it to teach kids to hate and be racist and all this stuff..it was shocking and it was weird watching the parents who swear up and down they dont know where there kids are picking up these ideas and thoughts from..some were just general sterotypes that ive heard all over the place..some were just holy cow did that just come from a 9 yr old?! i dont get it..the world sucks...everything sucks..im disappointed jim isnt coming over the watch tv with me...stupid i guess...no need to look forward to things right...i give up im just going to bed