Tuesday, August 09, 2011

opening a can of worms....

i have to get my birth certificate....i dont know enough information to get my birth certificate..and so im planning on going to ny in oct to get it..but its going to take a bit of planning and research and lots of phone calls prolly to even figure out if anyone can find my birth certificate...i feel so stupid..that i dont know any real information..i dont know the hospital..i dont know my birth parents names..im not even sure of who mommy put on the birth certificate..it should be so simple..just go and fill out the application and thats it..but no..i dont know anything..im not even sure of where in ny i was born..i always say brooklyn..i dont know why..we lived in queens maybe? brooklyn? im doubting myself big time..and its like i know some things but ive forgotten them..i know at one point i did know my birth parents names but ive forgotten...i knew the agency too..although at the time i dont think i realized it..but again ive forgotten it..and it leaves me feeling so stuck and on edge...

i think somehow i have finally decided to put forth the effort to see if i can locate my birth parents...i want to find out where my sister is buried also...all things that leave me feeling so alone and lost..how do i start..where do i look...what do i need to do??  its just hard having all this stuff in my head and no way to make it right ... i dont know what im doing..

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