Thursday, September 22, 2005

everything

to say things are bordering on being out of control with very good control is putting it micely and since im the only one who prolly can figure out what i mean its ok...i completely failed my quiz today in cj and that sucks and a lot of those i should have known..right now my head is really hurting and im going to take a nap soon...

yesterday was my birthday and it was jsut another day..yvonne got my a calendar i absolutely love and i got money and plenty of happy birthday wishes and thats about all..im going out for dinner today with catrina though...tried really hard to make yesterday and okay day and i guess i pulled it off partially if you dont count the s/i and the b/p...

and i found out yestrday that i really have no choice except to go back to aaran not that i dont want to i just dont like new places and i dont like therapy and putting them together at the same time just isnt the best idea...ive never gone to a first appt alone weird enough because most of the time its someone who wants to help and takes me pretty much because i wouldnt go otherwise...and this time its just left up to me...hmm part of my head is juts yelling at me to grow up and the other part is reminding me that ill most likely get hit my a car crossing the street...but anyway i really can understand the campus docs take on things and i have been with arran for a really long time..and its not that i hadnt planned on going back i just umm hadnt planned on going back anytime soon...except now ive done more 'bad' things than i can process safely and figured if i didnt call i would just end up in a whole lot of trouble very very soon...so i called today and got an appt and i have no idea how i will be getting there but ill figure that out soon enough i guess :S im going to lay down though

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