things are looking up

so things are looking up a little bit right now...i found out today that i will have enough fin aid for next year! i am so so so happy because i was so worried i wouldnt be able to stay in school...not to mention i would have had no way to pay for it..but now i can pay for school and rent and things without worrying about it..ill still have to find a job though because i dont have work study for next year...maybe ill be able to do self help or something because im not sure about working off campus next year..but now i dont have to worry about that for the rest of the summer


im still working really hard at no s/i...i made it through yesterday when i was really feeling like cutting..im trying really hard at it anyway..thinking way to much about everything else but i guess i can handle that for now..i still dont know what im gonna be doing about the doctor, im still to worried to go and make an appt because i dont want to have blood drawn but now im still thinking i have some major problem and im worried but not worried enough to warrant a trip to the doc about it...but i know im worrying arran just a tad bit by not caring more..but i cant decide..

me and yvonne found a stray cat yesterday and as much as i wanted to keep him i knew i couldnt because my mom has major issues with dusti she would never in a million years let me keep another cat at home..at the apartment it doesnt matter becasue its me and yvonne and not her..but still dusti hasnt been fixed yet and i was very worried i would end up with kittens and im not about to put kittens in the pound! but for now we dont have the extra cat he kinda disappeared last night when we went to look for him again...yvonnes birthday was fun..i ate way to much but it was still fun..she got me a care bear lunch box though..its a grumpy bear one ;) and i made her lunch with it and so it was a pretty good weekend minus yesterday morning..