complaining

waking up at 6 every morning is really starting to get to me...it feels like as soon as i go to bed its time to wake up again and then i go to bed earlier every night...and the stupid walk to the bus takes longer and longer every day...its way to hot to be stuck walking to the bus every morning and afternoon...im really not liking the transit ppl much right now...tomorrow will be 2 weeks without cutting..might be more but i forgot the last time i actually cut so ill just go with the last time i talked to arran because i know that is at least two weeks..so ill count from there ... but weird enough without cutting all i do is think without rest..geez ive thought about everything lately without it letting up much...thinking so much really is tiring...

im still hoping yvonnes present will get here in time for her birthday but im not sure...if not ill paint her a picture and eventually her other gift will get here...i was kinda hoping we would go to cary for her birthday because then we would be able to go to whole foods to shop..but if not its ok too i can go to the reg grocery store..really have been eating to much lately but i am making an effort to drink more water to help with the dorky dehydration thing..i really dont know what makes me hands turn blue except being really cold but i dont really know how to fix that

dusti is fine, getting bigger..ming is fine and staying the same size lol..

nothing to interesting to write about though..found an older poem i wrote ..and working on 2 others..i put them where i keep all my other poems though since i need to work on them some more..