nothing great

still no cutting and im really really really trying at it...im working at it now because i really have no idea how long it will last since well yea july is a sucky month and i wish someone would take it off the calendar lol...anyhoo sucky weekend food wise..so ill have to start counting cals again because im seeing laura in a couple weeks i think and i cant go home looking like a pig dusti is back to normal for the most part lol..her and q still are going at each other and its a pain keeping them apart becasue q drives me crazy going back and forth to the window! renee is back too and so theres the 3 of us in the house and its not bad since we all have different schedules...im so tired becasue i stayed up till 1 in the morning playing cards and then when i went to bed i couldnt go to sleep..and then i had to wake up at 6 and its not cool falling asleep if i stop moving lol..the only productive thing i did this weekend was my hair...i was surprised i got a call for roxy last night asking if i wanted to go to the store...it really was sweet of her to remember i dont have a car lol and call to ask..she doesnt live that far from me either so its kinda cool....im not doing anything for the 4th..yvonne will be out of town and so will renee and i have no intention of going home so it will just be me and dusti and q hanging out this weekend...3 weeks without ming will be so nice..not that i dont like the dog shes just in the way at times...geez my head is all over the place today..oooh umm im being decently responsible and taking my vitamins like im supposed to...ive decided to get back into keeping a journal..like a written one becasue i dont have my comp anymore and cant write as much as i used to...so in a small effort to keep myself from not cutting i will write everything down and see how that goes..its not like i wont have the time to do it..i have to much free time as it is...i did read a really good book last thrusday..finished it in like 5 hours lol..inbetween doing other stuff...i am going to look up the books on mindfulness and radical acceptance that my teacher recommended..it will give me something to do and some of them actually do look like kinda interesting...so i think ill get a couple to add to my re ading list since im not sure how long it will take me to get through them..since the toxic parents book took me a long while but i finished it even after swearing to never pick the book up again lol....im such a dork somethings....anyhoo i better get to work..