this has been a really hard week..and i know ive been trying to deal with it and escape it at the same time..and so yeah ive been sleeping ... a lot ..took valium yesterday..only one though..
but really how much is one person expected to take in one week ?
-kitten died
-doc is leaving
-t is out of town
-pdoc is out of the office
-first job place is closing down
-completely out of money
-sister is sick and pregnant and anything could happen ...was in the hospital for most of yesterday
-my clients are pissed at me ...with good reason
-kathy is out of town
and its like ok ..everyone has deserted me all at the same time ...and this week has sucked and everyone is gone...and so yep..shut down mode extreme...went to sleep and slept and ignored a lot of stuff this week..everything is to hard right now...im frustrated and scared and worried and annoyed...im babysitting this weekend..so maybe that is a good thing..if nothing else it distracts me a bit...well not being kicked out of my own bed..but i dont mind the kids being here...im not alone at least...
i actually looked at razors in the store the other day..and i wanted them..but didnt buy them...i couldnt..i wouldnt...ugh...this week may have sucked royally but there was no need for me to make myself hurt anymore than i was already hurting..
i dont know ..just feeling pretty lost and aimless right now ...
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