whats going on .... changes

im sorry in advance if this doesnt make sense..im trying to sit up and write but head is still spinning and iim not thinking all the clear ..stupid cold ..but anyway


i had a sorta lunch meeting wed with my old supervisor..and i had been waiting patiently for her to get her businness going and all that since she left the office..ooh about a year and a half ago...we have stayed in touch...big time stay ed in touch..

well talked to her wed and she told me that within the next 3 months she plans to have the boys program up and running...a home for boys ages 5 - 12....

the position she offered me (like she actually started the conversation with i know you have kept asking to live with me) !..is a live in overnight position...i would be moving into the home with the boys which would mean downsizing majorly for me...because i would be going from an apartment to a room...but i get to keep my cats with me!! ... my days are free so i can do whatever i wanted..have another job or not ..i wouldnt have to pay any household bills anymoree..which would allow me time to save and catch up on some of the outstanding bills i have floating around..

there was be an easier way for me to get health insurance through the hospital because there will be a decrease in income ..i would still be making a paycheck..and i would get to work with children again... and i will be back to seeing my supervisor almost daily which has the kids so excited...and this is working with a lady who knows that i have 'issues' some big ones..and still she offered me the job..and of course there is the piece that i will no longer be living alone...

i will be a change..and take some getting used to..but i think i can make it work..having my own place isnt that important..i just need my own space...and it will be less stress having the hours for when the kids are actually sleeping..and these will be more low risk kids so no super major behaviors...some behaviors...but not restraint worthy behaviors..

we have thought about it none stop for the past 2 and a half days and cant see any reason as all to not take the job....really cant..becuase there would still be time and space to work on our own stuff..or have a small part time job..and time to go and visit my sister ! we even did a pros and cons list..adn there were only 2 real cons..and about 12 pros..

and the kids are talking about it in a way that says that will get a family again...a good family...thankfully my super visor will keep the boundaries in place..and of course we would be learning to keep the boundaries in place..but starting off ..the supervisor is strong enough for both of us...(i have worked with and spoken to her on a personal level quite a bit, and yes the question of living with her had come up quite often...

but it is the change i have wanted..it is the job i have been for pateintly...ive waited and waited for her to tell me this news..and now she tells me and it only took two days to decide..really less than two days cas i would go with her anywhere..literally..

i am excited i am..right now though im juts to sick to care about anything ..

but i have about 2/3 months to downsize..pack...and figure out what it is that we absolutely need lol..its like going back to college gosh darng it!!!! and we wont discuss how i have clothes everywhere (in the closet, on the closet, out of the closet, in baskets)well you get the idea...a lot of downsizing to do !

but this will be a good move i think..this is somethingi want...now to juts keep my current job..because my plan is to reduce my hours there to part time..and only have a couple clients to work with during the day...and then having my full time job at nights...

and we will be able to get out of this financial hole of school bills and med bills and all of that..

ok
now going back to lay down

jls