something i dont want to forget .....

while at home this weekend...there was an incident that i dont want to forget because it is important...because i know it happened...

i was getting my hair done....mommy was in the kitchen, uncle jr, and nia...and they were talking about something to do with babies...and the kids mommy used to have...watch..whatever ...

uncle jr made a statement..he said...

i remember when you got both of them...talking about my sister and the other little girl whose name i was never able to remember..(angelica)

mommy jumped right in and said

you mean when i got angelica..


never did she say anything about being pregnant or having any of us...never...there are no pictures...we all just sorta show up...

but i already know i am adopted...i know nia and henry are adopted...we all know sissy and wayne and the older siblings are adopted..how much my younger brother and sister actually remember i dont know...not that we were told so much as just i was nosey...and the more she tried to get me to stop ..the more i was determined to go through everything...and i found the adoption papers on my younger brother and sister...i found the newspaper article for my sister and i...i know the name of the adoption agency..but the agency is no longer in business...

but no one will tell me anything.not that i have asked...but all the adults ..all the aunts and uncles and everyone ..someone should know something...someone should have told us/me the truth...its to late now to go back obviously ... but anything can happen...and this seems to be a secret that mommy is intent on taking to the grave with her...and i juts dont understand why :(