i was going to write this later but well...the thoughts are on my mind
now and i better get them somewhere before i forget what it is that i
want to write down...
i had forgotten about this particular
entry...dont know why..my head is pretty out of it right
now...fuzzy..confused..having lots of trouble concentrating...
when
i wrote the other post i was feeling pretty bad depressed wise....but
had pdoc and t the next day and saw both of them...and worked out a med
change that i seem to be handling much better...she switched me over to
the other form of welbutrion..so instead of being on sr im now on
xl..and i think it is working...i dont have much to go on really cas
right as i was changing the meds..i caught a cold...and it has turned
out to be a pretty bad cold at that...
hmm wed my throat started
hurting..wasnt a major thing...just kinda noticed and moved
on...thursday it was worse..hurt eating..headaches..general
confusion..not having energy or motivation to do anything at all...did
go and pick up some mucinex..cas i was coughing and i knew i wsas trying
to get the cold to come out but it wouldnt ..and mucinex does help with
that part of things...friday comes along and im worse not
better...everything is still going on...go back to the pharmacy and get a
different type of medication...changed to the dayquil/nyguil stuff..and
thought it helped a little bit..eating was still a major pain because
it hurt to swallow anything at all..cept soup...so my diet for the past 4
or so days has been soup, tea, or bread..with the occasional something
else thrown in until i gave up trying to eat it...watermelon worked
too...saturday comes along and i wwake up and cant open on of my eyes
which freaks me out..cas i start thinking i have pink eye....got my eye
cleared up and it was a little pink but not the itching hurting that
comes along wtih pink eye...mom and sister both telling me i sound
awful...which brings me to yesterday...again i had been taking the over
the counter stuff..and it juts wasnt working so great...again being told
i sound awful..and that it was hard to understand me talking...i wanted
to give it one more day..before going to the ER ...because that was the
only option...ER because the clinic i go to you have to have an appt to
be seen..and so i knew i wouldnt be able to be seen there...i was kinda
hoping i could slip in and see my med doc and get her to prescribe me
something ..but it didnt get to that point...at first i was fighting
hard not to go to the hospital..putting my hope and well wellbeing into
the over the counter stuff and hoping it would kick in..but i was
miserable..congested..hungry and not hungry..cold and hot..and trying to
breathe and talk at the same time was getting harder..and so yesterday
afternoon when mommy again pushed going to the ER i didnt fight her on
it..i was tired..i was sick..i couldnt see any other way out of it
really..and at that point i dont even think i cared...i was a little
angry that i couldnt wait until tomorrow you know...but oh well on that
one...
so off to the ER i go...driving slowly because my
attention is all over the the place and i cant focus...the long freaking
walk from my car to the emergency room about did me in..i was so
tired!! but no one else was in there and so i was checked in
immediately..and almost juts as quickly got a face mask to keep my germs
to myself..i was taken back to a room just as fast...and the doc came
and saw me almost immediately...talked about what had been going
on..meds i was taking..etc...tested me for strep..i was just glad i got
to lay down and not have to do anything for about an hour...finally the
doc lets me now its nothing major..no strep..no pink eye..no im gonna
die tomorrow..etc...he told me i have an upper respiratory infection
with a bit of bronchitis thrown in...and so i left the er in 3 hours (no
kidding) and headed (very slowly) to the pharmacy..only to fi nd out
that the 3 prescriptions where going to be over $100...money that i
didnt have at all...ready to cry and freak out i called mommy and she
told me she would get the money..so i ended up borrowing the money from
my sister and her husband to my utter humilation..promised them a
million times to pay them back..but the whole thing was overwhelming
..and i was beginning to cry while at the pharmacy...so got the medicine
and some juice and just came home..started the antibiotic and the
steriod thing right away...the inhaler i do find a bit amusing .because i
havent had to use one since i was a kid..spent yesterday evening
sleeping off and on...but headache wouldnt go away at all...finally at
around 11pm figured out i hadnt eaten since like 7am..and should prolly
fix something..so made my little english muffin sandwiches with fruit
and some chips..and some orange juice...stayed up a bit longer..and then
again fell asleep...silly me had left the sugary stuff from making tea
earlier in the day all over the counter in the kitchen..and so my
surprise at finding the ant kingdom on my counter was not pleasant...got
that cleaned up and sprayed down..before fixing my food..ugh i hate
ants..but now the sugar is safely in the fridge away from the like
creepers...and this week once i catch up once again on work stuff..i
will be giving the apartment a good once over..well once i can do it
without having a 'i cant breathe attack' but there is a major need to
find some order in the chaos that is my apartment..and i think that will
help with feeling better too...
but that all brings me to this
morning..and pretty much where i am at now...already took the antibiotic
since i managed to get that one started at 5pm yesterday..but im up
early so its not a big big deal..trying to wait till at least 8 to take
the other meds with my regular medication..and i have to actually eat
with the steroid one..ugh..so at 8 will take those....i was waiting for
the energy boost but i think its taking affect pretty slowly lol.just my
luck...i did manage to start some laundry and take out the trash though
so that was a plus..and dang it im getting tired again ...freck...
but
the coughing has been more productive this morning...as in im actually
getting the gunk trapped in my lungs and sinuses out...its so gross
though... so so gross...having to do that hacking nails on a chalkboard
throat clearing to get the gunk up and out..and it hate when other ppl
do it..and hate it juts as much when i do it !! it drives me crazy..and
yep its so gross..but its coming out...gotta keep telling myself that..
but
i am feeling better already...and it hasnt even been 24 hours yet..my
throat isnt as sore...im becoming less congested the more i cough gunk
up...i can think again a little bit...im more interested in what is
going on around me..
my body took a beating these last 3 or so
weeks ... and i know i will need to take it slow to regroup and once
again get back to where i can manage and not tire out so quickly...but
today will be an at home paper work day...no going anywhere..while im
getting used to the meds..and all of that....
but maybe laying down for just a little bit longer will be ok..
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