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tired..and thats about all...all i want to do is go to sleep for the next week and not move ever again...me and jim are kinda in a bit of touble right now because the kids ganged up on one of the boys and shaved his head...he had no complaints about it but boy was linda and jon mad as heck today when they found out and they just didnt let up on us at all..even if we werent there when it happened we should have been and it should have been stpped..but as it happened we werent there at all for the most part and its just the two of us isnt enough for eight kids..we need a third person..we are behind in paperwork and everyhting because there is just no time at all..and jon doesnt understand that we have no extra time at all...its work and keep up with the kids all day long and when they go to bed we go to bed..simple as that..some how he just thinks we have tons of free time during the day and shouldnt fall behind on anything and its like give me a break..you come and deal with them for a day or two and see how much energy you have left at the end of the day!! so its just annoying that we are validated in some ways..i work my butt off dealing with them and i guess sometimes its just not enough...we are talking about summer and what program i want to be in and how things are going to be set up next semester..weird how uch some of the kids already talk about coming back and its like good grief i never want to see you again and you are coming back! oh well..will figure it out as it happens...and i got more info on insurannce and stuff today and its so confusing..suddenly i know what areas of real life im lacking in horribly and filling out paperwork is seriously one of them...but i got enough of it to realize i cant do therapy under this insurance..not long term anyway and 3 sessions wouldnt do anything at all for me..so for now im still not making any decisions about anything at all..it still worries me and everything but i cant decide and until i save up there is really no point in stressing i guess..also got info on a 401 thingy and geez it is a bit depressing thinking about retiring and everything now...no idea how to fill those out either! im such a dork