is it written somewhere that this is the month were everything possible has to happen?! have i somehow wronged the universe and this is all just payback for something that i screwed up and dont remember doing
:( my shift partner is leaving..she accepted a new job..and is putting in her two week notice today...im shocked and really wanting to cry about it .. we worked well together..we got along..im worried and scared..very worried
just feeling like things keep happening and its all out of control .. dont know what to do..feel very sad and unsafe and worried...stressed to the max right now about everything..and now yvonne isnt going with me this weekend and ill have to take that long drive by myself.and mommy is all worried . and shes asking if ill come home after the graduation and i cant decide anything. i odnt know what to say or do or anything right now. talked to the nurse at work today and she looked in my mouth and told me that teeth are coming in at the back..and so my wisdom teeth are coming in and it just hurts and its a pain eating and drinking or doing anything right now that involves face muscles..so have to go to the doc tomorrow. and have to go before t and pdoc tomorrow and that means getting up early and ..really just want to stay in bed and hide..
really want to cut ..thats all we want right now is to be able to just forget all this mess for a little while..just a little peace and quiet ..and the more out of control all this other stuff feels the more cutting looks better and better..cas it helps..because it can be controlled in the mess of all this out of control stuff..cant do this..really really cant
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