other randomness

i think the last med increase has helped chill out my anxiety...a lot..like im in neutral with almost everything..im not feeling stressed or on edge or anything..im just kinda chill all the time now..and sometimes it bothers me..and sometimes it doesnt..i mean goodness im on 150mg of effexor now..and i think it can only be raised one more time..but between that and the lexapro i think im managing..i mean im not suicidal and all that so i guess i am alright. but i see the psych doc next week so we will talk about it more then im guessing..the only real side effect is that im hot all the time..like really really hot and sweating..ugh its so gross..and i have such issues with controlling my body temp these days..but yeah..im guessing its manageable in the end..it could have been a lot worse side effect wise..im still kinda unmotivated at times..but when i know i have to go to work i can of course pull myself together and get things done..but when im off and stuff..i kinda just dont do anything..or it take forever for me to talk myself into getting out of the house and stuff..

i also have an appt to go to the dentist next week. to talk about my wisdom teeth..and i have to set up an appt for like the general teeth care..cas well i think ive screwed up one of my top teeth but im not sure..and my wisdom teeth dont hurt anymore..well the one that came in doesnt hurt anymore..but i cant tell if its pushed all the way out or not..so dentist is a good first step..next tuesday will be super busy!

im also getting a kitten next week..on monday...all ive decided on so far is her name lol..im naming her wednesday :) i think its so cute..i talked to nia about it this morning and she told me i should name the kitten lint! but nah lol..lint would be going a bit overboard since i already have dusti and her name is one of a kind :) but i am very excited about the kitten. i am talking to a lady who has some kittens she is planning on giving away and i hope it doesnt fall through! but i talked to my therapist about it to and she told me that she thought it was a good idea ! and that the kitten would keep me busy. i told mommy about it to and i told her that i would have to bring the kitten home with me if i was home over the holidays and stuff. and she said ok.

but yeah..i think..i guess things are alright in an overall since..things are still super weird with yvonne..so that one is really just kinda hard to manage i guess..and she is still leaving..but yeah

completely random sidenote..mommy told me i sounded happy the other day..weird!