things suck

i saw my other therapist yesterday...well now my only therapist..and she picked up on that something was wrong pretty quickly..i told her what happened..and she listened..and she had me do a safety contract thing ..which im not liking very much currently..but i agreed to it..so im just trying to stay busy and all that..its hard..im out of focus with everything..most of the time i dont want to do anything but just lay down and forget i even exist..it hurts to much to think..work was a good distraction yesterday and i have to work today but the weekend is in front of me and i dont really know what to do..im trying hard to just let the feelings happen and not fight them..but its hard and overwhelming to feel so so sad and upset..