not good

let the panic start now..the serious holy cow im leaving..really leaving in a week panic..theres so much to do...so many different things that need to get done and i get overwhelmed and scared..and this morning just sitting here i have to fight the tears...why cry? what is there to cry about ? i should feel overjoyed about leaving and i dont...just sad having to say goodbye to everyone..all of my clients ..i have to say good bye the to them this week...one after the other all week..it will just be a week of saying good bye and then moving and more saying goodbye..my sister is upset that im leaving..everyone is upset that im leaving..i keep upsetting everyone.im not upset just sad..because i know im going, i know i have to go..that if i want to stay sane i need to go..and i guess it helps that yvonne knows im freaking out about it ..well i told her i was scared..i left out the freaking out part cas i dont want her to worry..i did tell her that im nervous about stopping therapy..and well we will see..im scared ill get there and just fall apart..that ill have so much time alone that i dont know..just scared and freaking out already this week..im nervous and afraid :(