just...wow

things are changing so much now...they really are...all in one week i found out i got the job i interviewed for, i got the apartment we applied for, i told my supervisor that i would be moving, dee and all of them know im moving...and im happy i am..but im sad too..guessing the excitement over yesterday has gone again..but it was nice you know..but now im just sad to be leaving because now its like yes your really leaving..nothing else is in the way anymore..nothing else can be put off..ive filled the requirement placed by mommy and now she cant even stop me from going..and that means im actually leaving..and that is scary..i guess part of me was just positive something would happen and i would just end up staying or i would really back out of it..or i wouldnt have a job..or something..something would happen ..i would have sabotaged myself in some way and it wouldnt have worked out..and given ive tried hard to go as slow as i possibly could with all of it..and still time kept moving and things kept getting done and now its time to go almost...2 weeks..and ill be moving..wow..its really just hard to believe..it really is..it is a lot to take in..and get used to..im worried a lot about it..and scared about it..but it looks like im going and wont be talked out of it..maybe i have grown up a bit lately..