just needing to ramble a bit

today i gave in a got a carfax report for my car..i realized a little late that i was a slacker and forgot to ask for it..but it had been bothering me because well i was worried something is leaking underneath my car..which i have now decided is the air conditioning..but still i have to take it in next week for an oil change and what not..and i was just worried because i didnt know the history you know..and so now im very glad that i did it and got the info on my car..im feeling much better about it and more stable with knowing that my car isnt going to just fall apart on me in the next couple weeks or something lol..but it was more for my benefit than anything else and now im a lot less worried about my car..and now that i can just keep up with the mainttence schedule and things will be alright

really no real clue what ive done today..all quiet things..reading, watched a couple really hold movies..gosh flight of the navigator! really ?!?! lol havent seen that in forever and it is still a really good if not slightly old movie ..but recognized it and stopped to watch it and realized it was one of those random i know ive seen this but cant remember but i know i liked it type moments! and played games online, wrote a little but not alot..just kinda zoned out and the day passed on..today was one of those yep a shower is way to much energy type days..

tomorrow i am going back up to my sisters and will be there for the day lol..i know when i go there im never home before midnight really..so ill have to plan for that..i always go and then never want to leave .. but cant spend the night..so home it is..


very super disappointed in the eating choices for yesterday...they couldnt have possibly been any more unhealthly :( and i knew i was making horrible choices but it was just ugh..not worth the effort of trying..i know the meds are messing with my eating habits a bit..and its just during the morning hours im not hungry..and then i eat ..and then at night im starving and just want to eat everything possible and some nights i manage more than others..but the feelings are there a lot lately..blah..really doesnt help that all i want is junk food..

t talked about body image and scars the other day..and ive been thinking a lot about it and cant get my thoughts in order concerning any of it..