i dont know

What is it really that you are supposed to get out of life? What dreams are you supposed to follow and live up to and work so hard all your life to get, only to find out you no longer want them. is that it? there is something worth living for isnt there? dreams can change all the time and thats ok. but in general you are supposed to be doing things that make you happy right? working towards so far off goal that makes all of this worth it but i dont know how to find that i really dont. i dont know what im working for and trying to get or what im supposed to be doing. linda has been telling me alot lately that she wants me to be happy and safe and loved and accepted and all this stuff that i never hear and it all seems so unattainable..like its something i can never have or will never have but she can see it and i cant and it confuses me a lot. its all making me sad right now..not in a i should have my life planned out kind of way but its just that im missing so much and cant seem to have any of it..i dont know