upset

why am i so upset and angry and tearful and sad  today...im on edge and i dont know why ..i dont understand why...why being upset by mommy two days in a row are having a negative effect..i was upset a bit yesterday but its worse today..maybe its that i keep getting talked to about my weight and losing weight and i feel like a loser ..i have lost 6 pounds since my last doc appointment ..but its like you should have lost more by now..stop eating so much ..stop drinking so much and you would lose weight ... i think i am feeling a bit attacked..with everything..and it is causing upset and paranoia ..and i just want to cry and be alone to suck and not bother anyone :(  and going home and knowing i havent lost enough weight and facing mommy again... yeah..i all around suck it seems .. im living up to no ones expectations...i should just die and go away .. :(