i feel awful

i wont be able to keep the cats this time around...one or both...i dont know..but the faster things more ..the more i am looking at not being able to keep either of them and its breaking my heart...i know the spca isnt accepting pets into their clinic...i know the clinic where i normally take them will be a bill of upwards of $100 bucks that i dont have..and bounce is sick..in some way..i just dont know how..taji is just bad...but things are bad in the current living situation and i do not feel safe there and im planning on leaving and leaving fast..and that may be in the next couple weeks...which means..not being able to keep them...the pound will take them for $50 together....what else can i do ?????? i dont know....