sleep and pain

yvonne wants me to come watch a movie with her....im not doing anything else so i will but i wanted to write here first so i would have time to get a grip before i go back downstairs...im calm enough for the time being...what it took to get there just hurts like hell..but i can focus again..i know ill fall asleep on the couch..i already to meds to help with that one..but i always fall asleep on the couch so its nothing special about tonight...i might ha ve taken to many so ill be really careful but im pretty sure ill be waking up fine in the morning..i prolly needed the extra sleep anyway..nothing much to write about tonight...just tired and sore...sucks for me the urge isnt gone but i really will work to make sure i dont cut again...thats gonna have to be an hour by hour thing cas looking to far into the future doesnt leave much hope for now.....