nothing day

its 1 in the afternoon and i havent done anything today exccept play video games and hang out online...i feel like i should be doing something..anything but i dont really feel like it..i want to take a nap and i think i will in a little while..i think ill paint later today...its been a while since ive done that...i miss it.my last picture which i actually showed my doc and janet surprised me...i didnt want to show it to them at all but i think i needed to...me and deep pictures seem to be stuck together..but then i suck at painting so i dont really show them to anyone..just for my personal keeps i guess...maybe when janet comes to visit i will show her some of them...i should show more to my doc but she likes to make me explain them...but i really do miss art therapy..that was a lot of fun..hmmm i wonder if ill ever get to do that again....i do want to learn to draw ppl though..but i cant right now...wonder if i can take a class someday...guess ill be going home this weeked to work because i want to order some more paint and brushes..and i want some canvas's...ive never painted on those before but i think it would be cool to give it a try...just a small one though..i havent mastered drawing or painting on big areas...the only thing i ever learned from my soci class...and it still intruges me...im glad that when i see riley draw he takes up the whole page...his world doesnt control him..he controls his world...but with me..i have to really think about it to take up a whole piece of paper drawing...give me a corner and ill cram everything in...my world controls me more than i control it..