food issues

the dinner turned out alright...not a lot of ppl showed up but it was ok.. im feeling way to much stuff right now...i dont know why i want to cry but i do and that just sucks ... with classes tomorrow i cant waste time crying over nothing...i feel sick again...i cant figure out the eating thing yet...right now eating does make me feel like im gonna be sick...so i dont know...i was explaining what i like to eat last night and it was weird...trying to list what i do like turns into what i dont like and i dont like a lot of stuff..but i dont like being c alled a picky eater..i dont like a lot of stuff and i know that so i just try to stay awake from the stuff i dont like...but then i was a dork and decided to go vegetarian again...and im not a real vegetarian because i still eat eggs and cheese and drink milk, not that im a huge milk drinker anyway...but if i stop eating milk and eggs and cheese..that takes out a heck of a lot of food i eat on a half way reg basis...i can give reasons for not eating them anymore but i would have to find something to eat at least when i was at home...im not like gonna push animal rights on everyone i talk to because im still working out why ive stopped eating meat in the first place..well except henry cas its funny telling him why he shouldnt eat stuff.. but not with anyone else..i have an ultimate goal in my head that im not sure ill get to ever....its like one of those die trying goals and im not good at those...i might actually die....my list of things to eat is just steadly getting shorter...weird though if i was trying to..nevermind..ok so ill figure out the eating thing eventually...next week though..this week is gonna be a sucky week for eating anyway....i think ill end up finding those pills again..pills are bad i know and i know i shouldnt take them because they have weird effects but god why did they really have to take ephedra off the market! it worked so well! so ill be really really careful and not take more than what to bottle says...and on a sidenote...never ever ever take like 3000mg of tylenol geez i felt so sick the next morning....i was starting to worry i wouldnt wake up but then i did and i felt horrible...so yea no doing that again...my hand is so sore from where dusti scratched me...its deeper than one of her normal scratches ... it reminds me of how my hand feels when im dumb enough to cut my palm...and i havent done that in a long time...im tired and c ranky and wanting to cut but im not sure of the reason...