Wednesday, February 04, 2015

calming the storm

I am able to breathe right now..the urges to hurt myself are quiet this morning.. I ended up spending the night with Sarah..it was calming to be able to joke and laugh... I have missed that..we have both had so much going on..and its been really serious stuff..so last night was a good break..no worrying or freaking out...just a good time together.. I didn't even realize I was missing it until last night..
Yesterday was just really stressful and a bit triggering.. and I had planned on cutting.. but other things happened instead that made the urges quiet down...so it was good...I think the scars were bothering me yesterday..shame and guilt fighting it out in my head.. not the best day at all...but it ended on a better note and that's good

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