badbadbad

Something is really wrong and I guess it started sometime yesterday..feeling way to much ..I keep falling asleep..And then bad dreams are what chased me away from trying to keep laying down...all. dreams ending in my death I guess..a very big difference from the night before where I was just super excited...My head hurts and trying hard not to cry..Maybe I'll put on cartoons or something...feeling incredibly vulnerable and sad and fragile..the ability to manage properly is leaving me very quickly..right now I just want to hide some where...self destruction is becoming an issue...My thoughts are jumbled. I can't think straight and.  I would prefer if the crying stopped..Maybe I'll just sit in the darrk and think about nothing and everything..And hope nothing happens...