sigh

I wish...I knew what to say tto make things calmer inn my head.but I can't..it's taking all of my energy to even be at work...as the night goes on my will to fight decreases and I don't know what to do...I'm watching the clock..willing it to move so that I can go..this this one of those nights that the pressure in my head is to much...And need to get it out..I'm..overly anxious and thinking to much..I'm not that worried about cutting...I almost want to just to get the thoughts   to stop...I don't know