back on the metformin and other stuff

well...i restarted the metformin yesterday...i am struggling with my feelings on why it is that i have to take it again..and struggling with the worry of having stomach issues again ...  so far it hasnt even been 24 hours yet and there is a little bit of stomach hurting ... maybe it will be ok this time around ??  gosh im hoping so..but ive also taken it enough to know that i may not be able to take it without having the stomach issues... im supposed to take it with food and already my dodgy eating has me taking it without eating..im going to go and fix something to eat in a little bit ..  but im not that hungry...like an hour ago i was starving and now i dont want to eat...weirdness ...

my back is still bothering me a bit and im frustrated with that too..right now im sitting up but braced against the pillows and im forcing myself to kinda stretch my back ..because it hurts.. 

not much to write about right now though..mood is really really down...  im missing bounce a lot ... i love kai and gizmo..dont get me wrong ... i just really miss bounce ...

i start my pharmacy tech class soon too...and that is a giant giant thing !  im so nervous and scared ... but i will have paid for the class...so i will be going of course.. but it is just nerve wrecking to be starting something new ..

i also was informed that i have been recommend for like this cooking class thing at the clinic...  doc told me she thought of me when they asked about people who were dependable and came to there appointments and would benefit from the class... i mean i can cook fine lol.. but this is going to be about a bit more than just cooking ... so i hate to admit it but i am kinda interested in this particular thing..although when she told me about it i was horrified lol... it is another 12 week program ..  i seem to be really liking 12 week programs lol ..

oh and im going to be referred out to see an endocrinologist ... to see what they think may help .. i mean just from taking the metformin yesterday evening my sugar was 226 this morning before eating..for what my readings have been lately that is positively low ! but i know there is a long way to go ... so that appointment i have to call about next week.

hhmmm ok ..now i guess that is all for right now ..