early morning writing because my head is all over the place..trying to make everything work for today..trying to fit everything in for today...im so looking forward to next weekened ..its crazy..i want to just get away so bad .... even going home is appealing...i know the anxiety will set in as it usually does..but sarah is going and we may be able to even get a small bit of time to ourselves..i doubt it but she will be there...anita told me that sarah kept smiling at me..every time she looked at me...something i dont notice...i mean im not ignoring her or not paying attention but i dont think i notice things like that if i not like talking to her ot looking right at her...but one hour with anita and she noticed it..go figure..but its ok..i trust anitas opinion..not that i would ever tell her that lol..but anywhoo..back to today..i have to see my client..make it over to the office to pick up my check...hope i go out with my client to walmart so i can cash it and send money to mommy for nia and rob...figure out what bills need to be paid right now...figure out what i can spend on the baby..and then meds and snacks for the trip..cat stuff...work stuff for next week..i need to pack my dinner for today...i want to wash my hair so badly..its gross..but i cant find my brush..and that annoys me....i think im just beginning to stress out about a lot of things...all at once...and i just gotta get through these next two days and ill have a break...ill still be busy per say ..but not so much...and it will be a little bit easier i guess .... i hope ... hmm maybe ill be able to get a pretzel today or something good to eat...my stomach actually feels ok right now...surprise!
im still losing weight ...i got courtney to let me check yesterday...so that makes it that in about a month and a half ive lost roughly 15 pds....i could probably round that down to more like 4 weeks or so but whatever...i was trying to remember when i saw the doc last and everything..and count..but technically im tracking my weight sorta on sparkpeople . i swear i join and rejoin that site every year..but anyway im just using the trackers on there ...occasionally i track my food and what not and when i do start going to the pool and stuff ill be adding that in...but for now im just kinda doing the weight thing...
things are moving along ... with well everything..there is so much to do and like no time to do it in...like deadlines are looking at me and im just like not sure what to do about them..there are things i need to do that i am putting off in a major way...ugh..i really need to call my school and figure out how to get my transcripts released...but at least i have the correct number to call now...so i guess that is something...
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