today....

today has been just one of those days that you read about happening to other people..where things just all go right and happen and it is a good day all around ...

i got up this morning nervous about going to the interview i had scheduled for today...got up...ate...talked to sarah..and then got ready..i posted on fb asking for good luck wishes because i was beginning to feel nervous and scared and didnt want to go ... but i went..freaked a little about finding parking but finally got it situated and went for the interview....the lady interviewing me was nice..i didnt ask her religion and i dont want to guess at it..but it isnt harming me in anyway .. but i spoke with her at length about my experience...she gave me a questionaire to answer and a writing example to do...i did both and then went back to talk to her..more questions and answering type stuff..paper work questions and so on and so forth...and then the last thing we talked about was pay....and before i knew it she offered me a position ... she told me that i would officially start may 4th ... ill be back in mental health support...there have been some changes..not as much paper work...im eager..im readyy...i want things to change so much..i need things to change....i really do...and i have to make the steps for the changes to happen....and it is scary...im not sure what i want to do about my current job..i dont want to stop it completely just because i know there will be a lag in checks for my other job...but i am going to decrease my hours...ugh i need to talk to anita... i talked to sarah a lot about it all today when we went out for dinner and she listened which was awesome..

we also talked about going to alsaka next year...for sure...so ill start researching and planning it...because this will be a lot more money due to plane tickets and what not..but i want a real vacation..i need a real vacation...

sudden im looking to the future again..im wanting to do things again...im feeling more hopeful about things...

i am going to come clean with my supervisor about the cps thing though and we will go from there...i just would rather tell her...and not let it come back in the paperwork background stuff...and i just feel guilty not telling her...so until i know for sure...i wont be letting go of my other job...not yet..

but i ended up calling mommy and nia and sarah and stephanie and of course posting it on facebook..and then i came home and took a nap..and then i went over the sarahs and we went out for dinner and then just spent some time talking...and then some time doing other stuff...i wished i could have stayed....really needing that physical contact i think...not sex per say...just contact..connection...

meds are starting to kick in though and im starting to drift off...

only had one sweet thing today at dinner

and the kids are becoming more comfortable...

ok i think thats all