failing at this

i woke up anxious and confused...i am struggling to do the correct things and not act out in anger or frustration or whatever it is that i am currently feeling...i dont want to take the meds..i want to hide..i want to cry...and i cant even get out an explanation of why...im hurting and upset and sad and just to many things to even name ..i think today i will just lay down until time for work..i cant manage anything right now  :(