amped up

i dont know why i am feeling so on edge..so amped up..but the feelings are just increasing and i feel like my mind is movnig to fast for my body to keep up..i keep thinking and thinking about so many different things..wanting so many different things...trying to figure out so many different things..i think it may be a latent reaction to the doc visit today..and feeling a bit nervous..talking to mommy and all of it..coming off of the benzo sooner rather than later..knowing she is going to talk to the new therapist..and being afraid of what she is going to say..and not wanting to go to a different clinic and just a lot bouncing around in my head and im feeling anxious and frustrated and irritated and i want to be left alone but there are people in the aprtment and it makes me feel even more anxious..im getting a headache big time right now..