famous people and mental illness

i truly get that any and everyone can have a mental illness ... i understand that any and everyone can commit suicide ...

what i disagree with is that when a famous person commits suicide..the world hurts for them..the world cares for them...the world is sad for them, for their family..the world is concerned suddenly for every single depressed person all of a sudden.. suddenly there is a major need for more access to mental services...suddenly if you need help there is a million posts on social media for help lines, tips for reaching out, guidelines for getting help, a million and one 'you are not alone' messages.  In my small corner of the world depression, mental illness, struggling, suicidal thoughts and all of this did not just suddenly materialize because one famous person committed suicide. Yes, I listened to Linkin Park. Yes, I loved their music, and I am truly sorry he was hurting so much, that he turned to suicide.  I hurt for him the same way I hurt for the people who day by suicide every single day and they are not splashed all across the news and social media.  They are not the faces of mainstream depression or why everyone needs to speak up and get the help that is out there right now.  It is not fair in all honesty.  Help is not free, Help is not easy to get, Help is damn expensive, Help can hurt you and leave you more broken than when you started.  Help is not that lovely, warm, catch you when you fall dream that some people seem to think it is. For now though, everyone is saying how important it is to ask for help and get help,  who is offering to pay for all of this offered help ?  who is going to pay for the medication?  or take me to appointments ?  when the 'help' high wears off who is still going to be in my helping corner?  depression doesn't stop when the media attention goes away you know.  it doesn't begin again when another famous person dies. I don't exist to be your personal charity case when the hot topic is depression and saving someone, that is not how this works.

so yes i am sorry he died.  i am sorry every day for anyone who has reached that point and commits suicide. i am sorry the news and social media has a fucking field day with it and turns it into a circus for the people who live with mental illness every fucking day and continues to deal with life because it is what we do.